missing you??!!

I'm missing you dear. Few days more to SPM. Haiz, still need to wait for you for about a month. I can't wait!!! Hang out?? movies?? Yup, I miss my fiends too. They are pretty awesome!! Holiday is coming...studyy?? Play?? I don't know. I'll see how it goes lah.

say cheese!!!

Yup,I'm in love again. Who say it really sucks?? I totally don't agree with it. My dear XXX, I miss you, totally missing you.

dreaming...

Dreamed of you again. Now I know, you're the most important person in my life. You help me to grow, you let me know the reality of life. I know I hurt you, I know it hurts. In the dream, we were together. Enjoy the moments together happily. If I have the chance, I'll choose you again, AGAIN!!! I won't let you go anymore. But I know you won't accept me again. Yes, I admit that I regret. I remember I told you that I won't feel regret for what I did to you. But you said I will. Yeah, I am. I am regretting. I know, There's no point of regretting but I want you. I miss the life. I miss everything. And I miss YOU!!!

Seriously, I don't know. That's my feeling. No one will understand. I remember, I dumped into the love river before. And it's pretty awesome. But after I broke up with him, everything seems to change. I'm not as happy as before. Haiz, really suffering. I almost cried. But I didn't. I choose to be tough and stop a single drop of tears coming out from my eyes. 21 gun, it really makes me think of you. But I swear, I will forget about the past. Life is complicating, love is complicated. I really need to say that. Life wasn't easy. Hahas, yesterday one cute fellow said he wanna come to my house and do revision with me. He really surprises me, but I still welcome him. To forget the past, I can only choose to enjoy my life. Enjoy it, and I'll be more happy. After I broke up with him, one damn freaking busy body kept on disturbing me. I think he's trying to get my attention in tuition. And of coarse, I lie to him. I told him that I have a new boyfriend. I just want to get rid of this person. Don't want to flirt with anyone right now. It's complicating, and is complicated. Have a nice day people!!!! I know I didn't update any post this few months and I decided to update today. There's only one reason, I'm bored. Anyway, thanks for reading my blog. Muackssss

又是你！！！

我不敢

我害怕

尤其是你姐

就算我只是看到她的名字

我就害怕

我想我已经对你的家人存有恐惧感了吧

可是我好想知道

你最近好不好

有少许的想念

真的

相思。。。

今天
我又哭了
也许是在想你吧
分手后
你曾告诉我
你得相思病
我不理会
因为我没经历过
如今
我终于明白那种感觉
真的很痛苦

曾经。。。

曾经

我觉得你很烦 真的很烦

每一天 至少都会传来一封短讯

我真的很讨厌 很讨厌

可是

如今

你变得很静 很静了

我有点不习惯

我甚至有股冲动

想传一封短讯问候你

正当我拿起手机的时候

手机响了

是你传来的短讯

我有点害怕

那天是你的成绩公布的前一天

但是

我的手指

很不听话地按入信箱

短讯里

你告诉了我

你有了新欢

我顿时

吓呆了！！！

我简直不敢相信那是真的

但我还是回了封短讯给你

短讯中

我祝福了你们

表面上

我好象不在乎

甚至替你高兴

事实上

我有少许的不舍

我不敢告诉你

因为我不想再次伤害你

我想让你拥有快乐

也许

这样才能令我感到欣慰

我真心祝福你们

对不起。。。

我不知道。。。
我也不明白。。。
为什么？？？对不起
很抱歉～～～
爱到底是什么？？？
谁能告诉我？？？
我曾经伤害过你。。。
我知道，我根本祢补不了～～～
思念
我曾经思念我们的过去
可是
我那无理的决定
已成定局
谁也改变不了
我只能祝福你们
永永远远
快快乐乐的在一起

It wasn't a good day

Haizzzz...I woke up this morning...still feeling exhausted...I'm tired of my own life...I always ask myself, "I'm just an ordinary person,why must I live in this complicated world???" I don't understand,why other people can live happily,but i can't???This is not the life I want...I'm facing plenty of problems, and i don't know how to solve it...I rather become a LEMON, as what my friend call me...becoming a lemon, is much more happier. I don't need to face so much problem. And no worries. Living in this world, will just make me feel more tiresome...I don't feel like living here, but i have to. Maybe God wanted to train me, i don't know. I'm trying to make myself happy, but it doesn't works as what I think. It will just make me feel more disgusted. Today I accidently heard something from my mum,"everyone does have problem, it's just the matter on how you solve it." I agreed with it, but I still can't apply it. I hate crying, seriously. I don't like people who cry, and I don't like myself cry too. Whenever I cry, I must be facing a BIG,BIG problem...I admit that I'm emo. But without all this problem, I swear I won't. As for sure, I wanna be a cheerful girl, FOREVER. But can I??? Ohhhh,safe me!!!! I wanna leave this place, I wanna forget the past. I hurt those who used to love me. I'm so sorry, I do not have the intention to hurt you. Please forgive me, I'm soooooo sorry. I love you...forever...and ever...No one could understand me, even my best friend can't. Only God could help me. Although i really wanna leave this place, but I swear I'll still stay here. There's still plenty of things I wanna do. Before I go, I just wanna give a big hug to those who love me, and those that I love. I'm a girl that is so dangerous, those who come near me will surely get hurt. Until now, I still can't find a friend that I really trust. God is only friend that I really trust. Only you...